“Twice bitten once shy”
The never give up attitude never left him.
For now, it seemed fun.
He felt like a pro.
Juggling around his heart and finding a new person to mend it!
It was much better than watching others.
There was a sense of satisfaction of having tried, than regretting of never doing it!
He smiled. He never won. But he won over his fears..
Once touted as the one who will never dare, to the one who never feared!
He smelled a sense of achievement.
He smelled the victory cry!
Some months before he had never thought what he could do..
It was beyond his imagination..
“But a gesture of love, can ignite a person, sometimes consuming him, to become that!”
Back as he saw, love was not the same as said..
It had its own highs and lows..
“Love is not for the one blinded in lust, Love is for the ones who enjoy the pace of it!”
“Love reveals itself. Love finds YOU! You don’t find your love..”
One find day, Love will find YOU!
It will embrace you so tight, that the whole universe will seem filled with it.
Love has it power. Misuse it and you lose it.
Love opens up your heart. It lets you play with the heart.
“Love is being silly. Love is respecting. Love is commitment. Love is a beautiful feeling..”
Try to hold it and you will lose it..
You cannot maintain love, you can only let it BE!
Love can empower you enough to face the criticisms, it can fight it alone!
Love can give you a sense of ownership of the other person..Something that causes most break ups..
Too much of it, and you screw up the whole setup of love..
“Love it, but don’t love it enough to damage it by yourself..”
Here he was, seeing the power of love, and its downfall!
Staring at the sky he was amazed, it was full of stars.
He could feel that, When love was right there, he never sensed it, but now with her gone, he enjoyed the darkness.
There were those stars which she gave,”the snippets of love” :)
Something, he chose to treasure and thank her for..
The feeling of love had subsided.. He was quiet..
He felt no urge to make a move himself..He sat there, Busy joining the pieces of his heart..
Carefully, bringing them together.
“You don’t find people. They are meant to find you. For a reason, so much beyond your reason, but with a definite purpose.They might not exhibit any purpose, yet establish over time.”
This was one such instance.. Someone found him, but not for the reason he felt betrayed for..
Just a casual meet. Again. Over the world wide web..
The world wide web is funny.. It lets you showcase a part of you that you choose to show. It never shows the part, you always want to hide..
And yet we choose to believe that story.. Not, that we do not understand.. But there is a slight hope, what if? What if i can change it for the betterment of us both?
What if, this is what the other never thought of? That it can be better?
“Hope. Faith can make the worst of the crimes. Like taking a risk to do the same thing that led you to a mistake.”
She looked stunning than the previous one. He was bowled.
She was friendlier and cheesier in her talks..
He was keeping her at bay. He never landed on the harbor initially. Observing the steps. Was it okay to dock? Or he should continue to sail ahead?
He never wanted to. But Hope? Faith?
He was a never give up guy!
He went with a precaution to himself.. He wont enter the territory to get lost! He agreed to his sane side!
But then, he changed sides.
He broke his protocols and became comfortable with her talks..
He never took it as true, although she hinted her in a first few talks. She loved to toy around the guy’s emotions.. Yes. He was emotional with the scars in!
But he was determined. To just hang around and stick to the precautions! Not knowing, the scars were still fresh!
She lured him by her talks.. He got caught. Now here he was, completely in her custody!
She won him. He lost himself in her.
But this was something different.. He could not meet her. She stayed miles away.
Oh God. This was a long distance relationship. He knew fully. Yet he took the risk!
He loved her talks. He imagined her smile. The same as was in the photo she posted.
He fantasized being with her, sitting besides and talking the same way as on phone..
Those days, he did not have plan to call her at affordable rates.. He went beyond.. He found one to talk to her as long as he wanted..
“Love is Being Mad.. It can literally make you do things, you never imagined!”
Sometimes though it comes out as better!
Long distance relationship is risk oriented..
There is no presence. and presence does it all.
Words hardly live up to. They just guide to fantasies. But presence! Presence makes it a reality!
Presence is what keep the fire in the relationship..It keeps it lit.
With lack of presence to just lit that love is not easy..
He felt the pinch. She was though, as she mentioned casual. She hinted. He never listened to that..
He was now completely lost in fantasy through her words..
A month and a half, he spent like that. He called every time. She never took that initiative..
He was out on a vacation… He informed her.. She kept being casual..
“Friends define life. They treat you beyond what you are. A side you never discover, they will make you explore that. Friends do that!”
A gala time being away. His new love life was now a topic of hot discussion. They talked over and over and saw him smile at her mention..
Back from the vacation, he tried to contact her.
She was gone! No return calls, messages, not even ONLINE!
He became curious and persistent in asking. He was being genuine.
It seemed like a lost signal. He could not trace her beyond that number. She refused to be traced too.. Shying away being ONLINE too!
He had to practice respect. He had to give her space. He chose to be committed with a slight tinge of knowing she has left him!
But he refused to believe until it were her words.
His birthday came. She wished him. He became hopeful but not for too long.She chose to be away!
One day, she decided, she came for a chat, She blurted finally.. She was already in midst of a complication, her feelings, her desires!
She was in midst of something. She was not a committed person. She loved to toy around. Some of it, made things complicated for her..
He thought maybe she sensed i was genuine and did not wanted to let me in. Also they never met!
“To lend space in heart is not so easy!”
What if you choose to take it for granted?
“NO!” She blurted out, “I am NOT your girlfriend!!”
He was not shaken that much as he was the previous time..
He decided. There was nothing on this path much to explore..
He called it “THE END!”
He chose to not explore it in the way he was doing it. He knew there was much more to life than just wandering carelessly like that..
He chose to gracefully part ways with the path..
Although many chances came,time and again, but he choose to not follow that path again.. Until as they say.
“Love FINDS YOU!”