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Thank you Sir!

​This is a story i want to share today and a express thank you to my teacher. 

This is about 10th standard, i had enrolled in tuition classes in my vicinity. The previous year I was in the same tuition class. We had one English teacher, Deshmukh Sir. He was short, bald and had a strong persona. His voice had a touch of passion for the subject. So he taught us the school syllabus. 
One day during my 9th standard classes, he asked us to write an essay. We all wrote it. Around next day, he came and praised me in front of the class. He loved what I wrote. I was overwhelmed. Never before I was praised like that. I mean teachers do evaluate, but I don’t think ever, someone stood up and said this was good or my efforts were appreciable. Not that I was a brilliant student but nevertheless you do expect teacher to value your efforts to catch up his level. I always feared his strong persona but liked and respected him as a person. 

Then in 10th standard, there were some more instances he was happy with me. 

And in the final prelims that my class conducted, i was told my Sir was very happy with how I had fared. 

Soon i gave my main 10th board exams. I scored a disappointing 55 of 100. 

I couldn’t face him eye to eye. He met me, he stared at me and showed me the notice board where the students class marks were displayed.. With a disappointing face, he questioned..Why? what happened? Why so less? 

It wasn’t that he was angry, but so deeply concerned as if he lost something. That he had failed to deliver. 

I couldn’t face it. I felt really bad i couldn’t live upto his teachings. 

Somewhere down, i promised myself to look up to him and answer him back.. 

And I took that vow!

As soon as my 11th exams finished, i got hold of the English textbook and studied it every single day for the 12th board exams. 

Not a day went where I did not pay attention in my vacations. 

Even in my college classes, i wrote things as teacher would say. I was so sincere to attend that there was a time, no one would turn up for classes and I would sit one on one with the English teacher. I was crazy with that. 

Soon prelims came and I scored a 80 off 100. I hadn’t scored exceptional marks but I did give my 101% . I was totally thankful to my teacher for this. This i dedicated to my teacher who did not just teach me the subject but told me it was his personal investment. That my result was also his win or loss. It is this value that I always treasure and cherish 🙂 

Thank you Sir for believing, valuing, appreciating and encouraging to do better and best 🙂

I know you are not here and in the heavens. I pray this thank you and my good wishes reach upto you there. 🙂

Life after Breakup!

Breakup (rhymes with startups) is now normal. If you are human, breakups do happen.

Here is a narrative from the diaries of Breakup phase taken from first person perspective and experiences of people who have interacted with me.

Breakup? Now what?

Breakup? Now what?

“What happens when breakup happens?”
Hope this honest narrative resonates some of you. Maybe sympathize or console you or let you be out of that phase!

 

Here is a typical cycle seen in no order and can repeat “n” number of times. 

 

Chapter A. You Question about it.

 

Chapter B. There is a lot of Introspection to both sides of breakup story.

 

Chapter C. You remember your relationship again and again and sort of make efforts to get the old moments back.

 

Chapter D. You seem to give up and think or make move for someone else.
These can happen just like in any random order and can stay for as long as the ego – mind complex is not satisfied with!

 

Let’s take these one by one.

 

Chapter A. You Question about it.

 

what now?

what now?

As the last confirmation came of becoming just “friends”, I remember the moment clearly. There was only one question – Why?
Why and why haunted like hell!
I mean how can she do that?
How on earth can this even happen?
But then what happened throughout? What to it?
Why this turn around?
Can we not negotiate?
Can we not adjust?
Outrageous and pleading – oscillations happened at top speeds.
Regret and anger changed places so fast.
There was no peace.
It was either i was the victim or she was.
Mind either choose to be defensive and angry or feel guilty and regret.
It was tough. Mind wanted answers and even though it may get it , it was not ready at all to accept it.
It sought the relationship back.
It refused to absorb the present. It just refused to.
That is how the complex the mind was..

 

Look carefully, love is so powerful – It can ignite you to the superpower to do anything..Good or bad.
It can make you weak too.
It can make you blind to seeing anything else, than the other person. It can make the other person as the center of the universe. All you will see is the person and no one else.
Priority will happen next to your loved one.

 

And when love has powered you so much. imagine how will you feel when you lost it immediately?

 

Perhaps that’s how people who hoarded black money must have felt 😉
Totally helpless and powerless and exposed when Demonetization of currency was introduced.

 

Suddenly the heart comes in a state of emergency.
Whom shall it express its vastness?
Whom shall it live for?
Life can be tough for breakups!

 

You live in the “Why” all along! Listening to countless sad songs and listening to all the lyrics. Sitting lonely in some dark corners, on the rocks of the beaches staring at the Sun and showing your scarred heart!

 

And when so many questions have just arrived your inbox, you have been shut to answers.
You literally are at loss of words, action on what to do next!
Imagine the helplessness.Sigh!

 

Chapter B. There is a lot of Introspection to both sides of breakup story.

 

introspection?

introspection?

 

When the “why” has settled for sometime, you wake up to become the next optimist or pessimist. You dig for the possible conclusions to present answers to the “Why”
You become your own judge and lawyer.

 

I have often wondered, what happens in breakups..where does it go wrong ?
Quite often noted, the intentions had changed.

 

In a relationship, first you seek love.
Then you seek respect, commitment, trust and care for your ambitions.
Ever if you fail in these tests at any point of time, your intentions change to just physical intimacy and selfishness ..Relationships can hit hard then.

 

Many a times, you both begin with a mutually agreed intention.
You know how much you will stretch for each other.
But love can change everything. Your physical presence and your desires can change your intentions very quickly. One who is loitering around to just have fun can become serious and turn into a one man/woman person and one who is a one woman/man person can become the opposite.
Love is enticing and can fool you!

 

At any point if you let the relationship become the center of your life, it can just ruin everything around you. You know why? Because you would want to spend more time with your partner than things around you. Gradually one of you would just hate that! And guess what is easiest to do then? Blame and say its best to break up.
Its easier to blame on life and other’s actions, than take responsibility for your actions or explain the situation and wait for a change!

 

Life indeed becomes complicated, when you mess routine things in your life with your love life!
So what is easier to do then? Breakup! Better to drop it than let your life be dragged by it.
Breakup often is a last choice. It is not easy for many, but when things don’t seem to change for the good, it seems the only option for one!

 

Hard to digest both sides later, but the only choice left to the one taking this decision! World might seem useless to you thereafter!

 

Introspection happens. You will commit to it and then you will blame too.

 

Over period of time though, you will see these things lose power over you. One day you will definitely wake up and say, what was i doing the whole time? Was i drunk? Why did i lose my mind and time in that? One day you will say that. You will laugh at your own reaction. You will laugh at your own exhibition of emotions!

 

There are early conclusions too from these introspection and they can be disastrous..!

 

I remember in House of Cards [English TV Show], there was one scene where the Congressman Underwood sits with the parents of the deceased daughter and asked them when the Congressman was blamed for the death of their daughter.  – “What do you want me to do? Resign? Just say it?”
There was so much anger in the parents and it could not be contained with a simple apology. Resigning would not have helped. Nor killing him. The damage was more. It could not be repaired or replaced by any act of violence other than satisfying your anger. In such a state of helplessness, the anger can be so powerful that it would want to express itself. There are instances where the person felt the urge to express this anger and have harmed the other person in return via acid attacks. What happened then? It felt, if it cannot be mine, it should be for none! There have been such adverse reactions too! Such one sided interpretations can be disastrous! Introspection can help. Interpretation based on little or no communication can create problems for both!

 

Love can give you power to build a world full of joy. And you dare deny it and it can make you sad and feel closed, violent and helpless.

 

Love is expressive. It talks with the presence. It talks with the touch. It talks with words. It talks with the many actions on the level it has touched your heart!
Love can be beautiful and love can make you ugly.

 

There are some who stick go through the introspection. Some realize mutually and regain their relationship. Some give up and find someone else. And there are some who neither choose others and nor make a bold move to regain old relationship and keep living in the memories for years to come. Making regret the center of their life. Yeah Devdas exists!

 

Chapter C. You remember your relationship again and again and sort of make efforts to get the old moments back. 

 

come back please!

come back please!

When the why and the introspection has subsided, some days you might just wake up to living those moments again. Trying your every bit to find contact with the person, again.
You may struggle for words but look for all sorts of opportunities to let your presence speak. Dramatic may it sound, but yes, some do go through this phase.

 

Chapter D. You seem to give up and think or make move for someone else. 

 

back to square one.

back to square one.

It’s time. You say to yourself. You find nothing happening on the other side. Deep down, you know it, it’s not going to happen again. You choose to just bury those memories and start afresh. You start looking around again, for a hint,one moment, one glance, one step from the other side. To let open your heart again. To rejoice in those moments, again!

 

now what?

now what?

So what happens in life post breakups? Majorly all of the above and maybe more..!
Lucky are the people who get guidance on what life is.. Life is more than a broken heart. Than the luxury of the physical intimacies!
No matter how many times you have hugged or kissed the person. The end of the relationship can never be predicted. So what preserves love? Wisdom preserves love!
and what is that wisdom? That you are more than your feelings and the experience. That there is so much to give than just be a taker of love.

 

To sum it up.. what will prevent breakups?
Knowing how love is 🙂
Live the mantra and stay safe 🙂

 

Love is

Love is.

Hope your relationship grows with gratitude, respect, trust and commitment towards each other!

 

To love and beyond.
Wishing you all.
Swapnil.

Where is happiness?

So where was the Happiness?
Where is happiness?

Where is happiness?

 

Recently we visited Vapi. The agenda for the evening was totally planned for but did not happen as we thought.. What went out of our plan was later covered up with something simple and it turned out best than ever!!

I was always thinking where was happiness all along? When did it just breached all of us?
What did we do to “feel” that we are happy?
We sat in a car.
We sat and exchanged a few words just like normal conversation.
We halted and ate.
We then mindlessly wandered and went wrong on our path and then continued!
We spotted a beach and all we did was stood in the water. Click some random pictures and run on the sand.
The head was paining and tiredness was seemingly becoming evident on our faces for a while..
We headed back again to eat and to be honest, the food was normal as we eat everyday.
We sat in the Puja and then in the evening we were back again!!
 
But yet at the end of the whole experience, we felt something had entered us. Something so subtle and so good. You can call it – “Happiness”
No idea when it entered and infected all of us. It made us feel “High”
It made us care for each other, and smile at each other more.
I reflected for sometime and it seems what we called as “Happiness” was inevitably “Change” in disguise. In people, in food, in place. Change in them.
 
When we joined in the journey, there were new people ( anyone whom you haven’t interacted with much is relatively new only! ) Even if a few of them, it still means new people around. New people means you are still unaware of who they are, how they behave, what they are. This unbiased and aware state of mind, helps us relieve of the first obstacle that we all face. Being judgmental about the ones around us. This blocks our happiness. We constantly and deliberately choose to be unaware of what they might not be and aware of what they could be! This blocks our happiness. With a new person, we look to interact with a fresh mind and are open to have a healthy connection with the other person. To learn, to know and to just let the company be! We might overlook their mistakes and will not judge or label their actions often! We will treat new people like fresh-baked bread. Often with care and compassion.
 
As we moved on, i figured out food too had a relatively nicer role to play. Digging deeper, it wasn’t food. It was eating the food by “being” together. That togetherness made us feel good! Eating with the same people you often don’t realize also you are with them. Newer people means, mind automatically hints it as a good thing and you feel good having the same food that you would normally eat or maybe more casually eat.
It’s not the food, it’s who accompanies you with the food that belonging-ness fills you tummy and makes you happy!
 
Living in the same old four walls and the lanes is definitely tiring. Our mind seeks constant change. Any denial of that, and we see our insides getting rebellious! We seek for change in the place, sometimes we want to get lost in the imaginary movie world, or the virtual canvas painted by the song that you just listened to! When you go in a new place, it automatically calls for newness in your mind. It signals your brain of new. With places are attached habits, practices, sometimes unwanted thoughts or the same set of thoughts. New place automatically triggers a possibility of newer experiences in the mind. And anything that is change, is just so what the mind seeks..
 
It is not in the routine, it is in the newness that the mind seeks comfort. It is the memories that bind us to behavior and our limited actions. When you travel you open yourself to newness, to let loose the mind where it finds comfort in. Travel challenges the memories to override their default settings and to gather newer memories to rebuild our hope to build a more positive life 🙂 Travel is a game changer. It completely does what we seek but never dare – Change! But company is what makes the dare easier and helps us to go through it with a more willing mind.
 
Travel and Let that happen 🙂
 
 
 
 

CONVERSATION WITH GOD..!!!!

AWESOME! Something unique !

CONVERSATION WITH GOD!!!!

Conversation with God!

Conversation with God!

 

 

Me- I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic.

GOD : Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you free.

 

Me :why has life become complicated now?

GOD : Stop analyzing life.. It makes it complicated. Just live it.

 

Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy?

GOD : Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

 

Me: why do good people always suffer?

GOD : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer.

With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

 

Me : You mean to say such experience is useful?

GOD : Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

 

Me : Because of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading…

GOD : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides the way.

 

Me : does failure hurt more than moving in the right direction?

GOD : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.

 

Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

GOD : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

 

Me : What surprises you about people?

GOD : When they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “Why me?”

 

Me : How can I get the best out of life?

GOD : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

 

Me : One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

GOD : There are no unanswered prayers. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Getting out of the small mind – Rajshree Didi – 10-11 March 2014

Rajshree Didi ( file pic )

Rajshree Didi ( file pic )

Some excerpts of what Rajshree Didi spoke on March 10,2014

1. Like a GPS, it shows u the path.It makes u the path clear.Though there is still traffic jams & all.

2. Likewise when u r clear with ur purpose with why u are doing. When there is clarity,U move on, even though problems exists & things have not changed.

3. Many times you know its wrong yet u do it? How to stop & avert this tendency?

4. You know u like what the small mind does. Because many times your logic works, reasoning wins!

5. & with that attitude u keep moving & at times get lost in that ambition to win your small mind.

6. That is vasana, that binds you back with misery.

7. To overcome Vasana, one out of ten times, you say a no to it. Start with this.

8. You know observe the wall. If there is a crack how will the water flow?

9. It flows thru the cracks & soon there is a continuous flow & water gets directed to it.

10. Same is with the mind. Vasanas are those cracks. If you let them be, it widens & concentrates!

11. You have to fill the crack with cement.& stop the water flow at some point

12.You have to say no to those vasanas that bind you to misery.

13. Through awareness & understanding you can overcome the vasana with Purushartha – SelfEffort!

14. So KarmaYog & BhaktiYog both are there. You have to do & you have to relax

15. You have to sing & you have to surrender.

16. You have to relax & stop running around in the mind!

17. Trust in the innocence ( bhola bhaav) of the present moment..
Bholenath..thats Shiva..

18. If the creator created all this without any purpose…how will we ..the creation have any purpose!!!!!..
its just his daydream!

19. You want to know the how & the why. You just relax & Be. Be in this moment & Move with the confidence that everything is alright 🙂

20. Die every moment – that small mind that keeps hankering to misery & bondage ,
to let Life spring up & align itself with a greater cause. To not get stuck up again in misery 🙂

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SOME excerpts from meet with Rajshree Didi , March 11,2014

1. Whenever you meet Guruji,  your mind should be stable & clear without any turbulence. It should not be like he is coming & making you calm. You should be ready to learn or experience his presence.

2 . Have at least one “Guru brother, Guru friend,companion” who will be there to keep you on path.

3. Come out of & drop all patterns to be free.

4. Having anything is your choice.  Your friends, positions,food.
You choose you reap.

5 . Behind everything there is intelligence working,  there is even mismanagement.

6. It’s that intelligence which is carring us n everything . Like wood log in river flow.

Once again remember…
Our consciousness is like water & body is like log..
Its about merging with the big consciousness & getting out of our small minds!

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Rajshree Didi (file pic )

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JaiGurudev!

 

 

Q n A with Sri Sri : How to make doing Sadhana everyday, an easy habit?

Q n A with Sri Sri

Q n A with Sri Sri

 

Q : Gurudev, taking out time for Sadhana in everyday life becomes little difficult, whereas I enjoy doing Sadhana.
How to make it an easy habit?

Sri Sri:
Look, is it difficult to take out time to brush your teeth?
You need to take time out to go to the washroom, isn’t it? You bathe everyday or not? Do you run to the office after getting up from the bed? Without having breakfast, do you go?
There is time to have tea, breakfast, and gossip.
There is time to bathe for an hour, and there is time to stand in front of the mirror and comb your hair. Whoever comes home we have time to talk nonsense with them. And on top of all this, there is time for television.
But for doing Sadhana, after doing which one feels so good, how come there is no time?

I know there is a lot of running around to do in life, and it feels like there is no time, but you have to create a discipline for Sadhana. Make a commitment, ‘If I don’t do Sadhana today, I won’t have breakfast.
I don’t have the right to eat anything until I sit for 15 minutes’.
Only 15 minutes, in the morning after waking up, sit in bed. Loosen your whole body, and realize that God is your own, God is within you.
Just sit there for a few minutes.

I tell you, once in the year 1980, we went to Badrinath and Kedarnath (pilgrim spots in North India). In those days going to Badrinath and Kedarnath was very difficult.
It would take three days from Rishikesh to Badrinath.
We had to stop frequently and couldn’t travel at night. There were two Germans with us who we taught pranayama and meditation. ]
When it was evening, they would ask the driver to stop the car near any pavement.
And there on the road, by the pavement, they would spread their mats and sit in meditation.
I was surprised seeing them. Whatever condition you are in, wherever you are, you should meditate.

During my college days, if I was traveling by train, even I would also do it (my Sadhana) there itself, in the train.
But I was seeing these two Germans, they were so particular about the time. As soon as it was 6 PM they would stop the car, and sit in meditation.
What I mean to say is, we should make it a habit.
Morning or evening, at least one time – when you return home from work, wash your face and sit for 20 minutes. This much time we can definitely take out. Or wake up a little early in the morning.
If you were not able to wake up early and got late one day, then do it after returning home in evening.

When you have decided that without doing sadhana you won’t have food, then this becomes a part of your routine. Then if you miss one or two days, no problem. But don’t make missing it a habit.
There’s a very nice bhajan by Sant Kabirdas.
“Kaam na choda, krodh na choda, satyavachan kyu chod diya, Naam japan kyu chod diya”.
(You didn’t leave lust, you didn’t leave anger, then why did you leave the words of truth? Why did you stop chanting his name?)

 

Karma, Mahabharat and My duty ~ Sri Sri answers..

Sri Sri Ravishankar ji

Sri Sri Ravishankar ji

Q: Guruji, I have been told that a human soul can often take one to two million years to find liberation. Is it true that by doing Kriya and meditation every day, this liberation can be obtained even in one lifetime?

Sri Sri Ravi Shankar: Everything works with some strange karma. You must lift your eyes and look into this realm. There is a beautiful couplet that says, ‘This world has all the wealth, all that is needed, but one who has no karma, cannot get it.’ So, whether you get something or you don’t, it all works with some strange karma. Recognition, money, power, relationship, health; everything depends on some law in creation. When good times come, your worst enemy starts helping you, and when bad times come, even your best friend behaves like an enemy. All these things happen due to some very strange karma.

An intelligent person doesn’t get caught up in all this. He still keeps putting in his effort, and keeps moving on. You do whatever is needed to put in an effort, and then you leave it. Do you know Lord Krishna went three times to stop the Mahabharata (narrative of the Kurukshetra War) war?

When someone asked Lord Krishna, ‘If you knew that the war was going to happen anyway, why did you go three times for peace negotiations? All three times your peace negotiations failed, then why did you go?’ That is a very valid question.

Lord Krishna said, ‘If I had not gone, then the question would have come that you could have done peace negotiation, why didn’t you do it?’ You have your duty towards your karma, whatever you need to do, you do it! Suppose the peace negotiation would have succeeded, then the whole Mahabharata would have finished, and the Gita would never have come! The immortal song of the Divine (Bhagavad Gita) would never have come into existence!

So, very well knowing that the Gita had to come, and the war had to happen, still Lord Krishna went for peace negotiations. This is because it is in our dharma, our nature. We should keep putting in our efforts and not get attached to the consequences or the results. This is very subtle because the mind gets sucked into maya ‘illusion’ in some form or the other.

The mind needs to be hammered into knowledge. It can easily slip out of these four pillars of knowledge, Viveka(discrimination), Vairagya (detachment), self-control, and honoring what you have (not grieving about what is not). And then, wanting liberation! So keep on hammering the knowledge back, again and again!

Suddenly, you will find it is all there, anyway. Now, when you slip, then also remember that is another level. Knowing all this, suppose you still get caught up (in maya), then don’t feel bad that you got caught up; even that is part of nature. Don’t say, ‘Oh, I did not apply knowledge!’ or ‘Either someone else is wrong, or I am wrong!’

Whether unpleasant things are happening or pleasant things are happening, I am a witness to it. And my mind is getting caught up in it, even that is a part of the happening; I am witness to that also. This is how you rise above the situation! You have to practice pranayama, meditation and knowledge for a long time. The whole life itself is a practice, and when you practice with honor, then this knowledge becomes well-founded in you.

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